Camping and BIG Decisions

I took lot's of camping pics, but need a new cord to connect my camera to my computer. Once that is done, I will post! Amazingly, even though it was colder on Saturday night, we all did fine. I think it was the fact that the wind had died down. We had a nice game of Monopoly going and really enjoyed ourselves.



So. Big decisions. Two weeks ago today I got to work and found an email from my boss aksing to meet with me at 3:15 that afternoon. I hate those email's. I worry myself to death over being called in by my bosses. Usually it's needless worry. This meeting was no exception. They were not meeting with me to fire me or tell me I am doing a horrible job, they were meeting with me to tell me that they want to sell me the store. They have had it up for sale for quite a while now, but with the economy the way it is, they have not had takers. The both work other jobs and are just ready to be rid of the burden the store presents in their lives both time wise and financially.



At first Jeff and I were just pretty much in shock mode. I was really in emotional mode. If we buy the store, it's a big risk (even though they have given us very nice terms). If we don't buy the store, I will lose my job, and soon. They will either sell to someone else who won't need a GM or they will close the store. Losing my job would be devastating for us. I've been through it before and even though everything worked out in the end, I REALLY despise the unknown. I feel like I am flailing in the wind at the moment.

I know we can do this, I've run the store for nearly a year now and Jeff has managed restaurants for 20 years. It is something we've both wanted, to own our own business. In many ways, this is a dream come true. Unfortunately, it's just not an easy decision. There are so many things that are involved in buying a business. Creating a corporation, deciding which kind of corporation you want to be, and many many more small details. Things I knew nothing about until the past two weeks. It's overwhelming.

In some ways I feel as though I have been training for this for a few years now, and I guess that is why the option of saying no is so upsetting. I WANT to do this, but wanting to do something and it being the right thing to do are two very different things. I was calm for a while, when I really felt we were going to buy the store (and basically I was avoiding thinking about the other possibilites). Today things have changed and the owners have pretty much given us a two week deadline. We either go for it, or I get a major pay cut December 1st (oh, and right before Christmas, yay!) and have to face looking for another job.

I think I need a big cry to clear my head. I'm trying not to do that sitting here at work since my employees know nothing about anything that's going on! Anyway, big decisions afoot.