Coffee is GOOOOOD!

I'm so sorry I have been bad about blogging. Starting the new job just consumed me for a few days, and then "Twilight" consumed the one day I took off.

The first couple of days on the job were pretty good, but just extremely overwhelming for me. That's just how it works for me though. When I am really nervous about something I just turn into a deer in the headlights and it takes a little bit to move past it. It is the same way when I am learning lines for a play. Some of my past directors know this, so the first few times offbook they know that I will stumble alot. But once I have gotten the lines right just one time, I always get them. It's just a weird quirk I have I guess. Soooo, learning the POS was a little intimidating at first, but by Friday I was able to do the lunch rush with no problem.

Mostly though, the stress comes from the weight on my shoulders. This place has a ton of possibilities and I have alot of ideas. I'm sure I am just putting undue pressure on myself. Rome wasn't built in a day. I do worry about failing though. I just need to take it one day at a time. And hey, free yummy coffee drinks on the mornings I need them....good deal:).

As far as the family issues, I have decided to let it go for now. I think what I really needed was to know that I wasn't crazy for feeling the way I did. All of your input really helped me see what was important. I got lot's of different feedback from many of you and some of it hit so close to home that it made my cry. I needed to hear it. Audrey is struggling in school and I think at this point, she needs to focus on that. It isn't a lie or a way out, so I am not being dishonest. I want my children to have a relationship with their grandparents, I always have. At this point, I will keep an ever watchful eye on things and if the need arises, I will not hesitate to discuss the situation.

I guess that's it for now.