Moving Forward

Jeff and I had a long talk last night in which I demonstrated all the amazing ways that we are being taken care of through this trying time. I am a religious person....somewhat lapsed on the going to church thing, but still a big believer that God is out there taking care of me. Some might have different views and I'm totally cool with that. At any rate, some really neat things have happened and are blessings during this time.

At the beginning of November I was beginning to worry that my child support check was lost in the mail as it was a little later than usual (the Attorney General takes this out of Rich's check, so it was nothing he did). I got it and didn't open it until I was in the drive through at the bank since they are always the same amount. I opened it up and it was nearly twice what it usually is. I nearly cried. I went ahead and put it in the bank, but immediately called the office to make sure there hadn't been a mistake. I didn't want to find out months from now that I owed them money. Come to find out, in April of 2005 a check had somehow not been delivered to me, so they were giving me the money that was mine. Then for some reason in November of 2008, they realized this and decided to give me that money. Hmmmmm...nice timing!

Now this little windfall allowed me to get one check ahead on paying bills. So, the last check of the month goes towards the mortgage etc...This little blessing has allowed Jeff and I to be in better shape with the job loss and we were able to pay our mortgage in December. I am going to get some decent unemployment, so all in all, things are difficult, but not horrible. January will be much harder, but I hope to have a job by then.

The next money related blessing was my parents. I have to say that through every difficult time, my family has been the most amazing support in every way. My Dad called me last Tuesday and sensing my worry about Christmas, offered some help. He said that he and Mom were planning to give us money for Christmas and would it help if they sent it now. YES!:) We don't have the kids for Christmas this year, we get them at noon on the 26th. We don't have to do BIG Christmas, but we wanted to make sure the kids each got something special. Plus, there are lots of other family memebers to buy for besides our kids. Another blessing.

I think though that the biggest blessing was my job loss. How is that possible you ask? Well, the way I see it, we were seriously considering something that could have financially ruined us. In many ways, I know we could have done it, we could have been successful. I WANTED so badly to do it, but as I said in an earlier post, wanting something and it being the right thing, are two very different things. I became privy to some things (I have friends in high places..lol on the advisory board) that most Super Suppers owners are not even aware of about the future of the company. There are some things going on within corporate that I think will ultimately cause it's demise. I wish so much that it could have worked, but I feel very strongly that it all happend in order to keep Jeff and I safe from something that could have destroyed us.

That's what gives me peace through this. I gained alot of experience that I can use moving forward. I also really believe that Jeff and I are being prepped to do something more. I don't think it's an coincidence that twice in the last year we have had the opportunity to buy our own business. It is something we both want to do, so maybe someday, we will.

I still really despise the unknown here. I want to know what comes next. But, I'm also trying to enjoy the break. My job with Super Suppers was all consuming. I had great flexibility which allowed me to be home when my kids got home from school. But even then, I was working. I was physically here, but always on the phone or computer. Work was never far from my mind. It leaves a big hole, but it is also nice not to have to worry so much. I'm going to enjoy today.